Strange, alien tubes, heavy with fluid, pull at the skin where they are stitched into place. Each drop from the IV pushes me further into the mattress. My eyelids are cumbersome, closing once more.
I gratefully fall back into the comforting darkness.
As the lazy rays
of the sun
stretch and yawn
over the horizon,
slowly warming the sky,
the first drops
of my awareness
glisten in the light;
droplets of thought
now a trickle of memory.
Thick, juicy, quarter pound burger, pink in the center, covered in the sharpest cheddar? Right there on your plate, and you left the room! After so many months of chemotherapy, I found myself drooling and ravenous.
"How's that chicken lasagna? My culinary masterpiece!" Gerald exclaimed proudly
Yum...dessicated balsa, mashed into pulp, chewed by an irritated beaver, then passed through the digestive tract of an entire colony of suicidal termites...my brain lamented, but I smiled.
IVs dripping
a staccato beat, my husband's restless foot,
Rustling paper movements, Distant phones ringing, muted chatter. Nothing distracts the other patients, and we listen
to Their Great Histories:
the Dallas Cowboys,
Union Pacific,
the Piney Woods.
Tiny
orange tendrils
unfurl from
my wronged belly,
coiling
spirals
that undulate
below
the surface
of my pale skin.
It doesn't ever
matter that
my own flesh
is burned,
or that the
conflagration
turns everything
to ashes.
I become incandescent
with rage.
I dumped out the toybox, pulled kitchen drawers, felt up the laundry, trying to remember. I searched underneath the sleeping husband, between the sticky cushions of the couch, the top of a cluttered credenza. At last! It was in the freakin' fridge.