Yep. It's the time that people trot out resolutions about how they are going to lose thirty pounds and find religion. While I am a firm believer that everyone should have a goal to pursue, I also understand that many of us set impossibly unreachable goals, which we fail spectacularly. We then feel justified in doing the exact opposite of what we vowed to do in the first place. It's impossible, we tell ourselves, as we finish off the last gallon of ice cream at Baskin-Robbins.
I'm not casting stones.
I myself have a tendency toward lofty goal-setting, particularly when it comes to losing weight. I see other people dropping weight quickly, not dieting or restricting themselves, and I think "Oh, that's easy." Overestimating my ability to resist food has been a lifelong affliction. I can't help it. Cheeseburgers call to me. Fresh donuts have the power to pull my attention if they are anywhere in a ten-mile radius.
It's a never ending quest, this battle of the bulge.
I can say 'no' to french fries, most days, and I consider that significant progress. Onion rings are an iffy proposition, however, as are fried pickles. Something about fried pickles just gets my mouth watering, and then it's all over. I'm thinking about fried pickles right now, as a matter of fact, and I'm practically drooling. I am a bit ashamed to admit that, but it is true. Fortunately, I don't know any place around here that sells fried pickles at this hour, otherwise I'd be there now, ordering some.
Other people go on about their will power and how they used it to conquer cravings for cigarettes, alcohol, and other vices. I'd like to say that my will power is strong, that I can resist. Often, my resolve is firm, and I am able to resist snacking, and I can order a salad without a twinge. This tends to lull me into a false sense of security, so that when a true craving hits, I am blindsided, helpless to resist. And if I am supposed to be on a diet, that just makes it worse.
I don't think that I need therapy. I don't have a food addiction. I just like to eat. Food tastes good. I love eating salads just as much as I love a good cheeseburger. No, my issue is portion control. This is what I want to work on in 2013. I tend to clean my plate, and maybe I would be better off just eating half. So that is what I am going to work on this year--eating half. Maybe if I work on that, it won't seem like a diet, I won't feel restricted, and I won't have cravings.
It's worth a shot.
What is your goal for the new year?