Saturday, June 30, 2012

I Just Wasn't Feeling It

I've been doing pretty good about posting something every day.  Probably not all that exciting to anyone but me, but really, posting every day means something to me.  It's a sign of commitment, for me, anyway.  Since I am trying to write more creatively, I need to write something. 

And then Thursday night, when I was going to sit at my computer and write my piece for Write on Edge...I just didn't feel like it.  It wasn't that I didn't have any ideas, because I did.  I admit to feeling a little discouraged because every other blogger out there has 4,000 comments daily, but that wasn't it. 

I've just been feeling very tired.  As in exhausted.  Run down. Like I am right on the edge of catching some sort of summer virus.  Part of this has been because of my work hours.  Ten hour days are just "off" my routine enough to completely wreck it.  I don't sleep as well because of it. 

I told myself that I would just go to sleep and then get up early on Friday to write.  Except that I didn't.  I slept in, and then I didn't have any time to myself to do anything at all for the rest of the day, because that's how it seems to work in my house. 

I felt guilty, a little.  Like I was deserting someone, namely myself.  And then I thought about all the efforts I make to post daily, even if it means staying up later than I want because I have to write after my son is asleep.  Efforts that I make because I want to write, even if they are blog posts that nobody reads.  I decided that I was being hard on myself, when I didn't need to be. 

I'm not going to stop blogging, but I am not going to get all anxiety ridden if I miss a day or two.  Well, I'm going to try.  Anxiety is one of my personality traits, and those are difficult to let go. Sometimes, however, we need a break.  I need a break. I am my own worst enemy in this arena, but I'm going to try to work on it.   

10 comments:

  1. It is a hard horse to get back on, and a hard one to fall off of! Afte blogging every day in April, I sort of fell into a rhythm...and then lost it very quickly! Now sometimes my Tuesday commitment comes out of nowhere, but it is my vey. Least!

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    1. Lol! I just need to try and have more fun, that's all. Maybe some shopping?

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  2. we should all blog only if we want to--take and enjoy your break :)

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    1. You are so right--I am going to enjoy myself!

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  3. I enjoy whatever you write and am reading even when you think no one is. I know what you mean about the feeling when you write everyday, committed to that, and you don't. I can't right now for an unexpected reason and, while it's got my undies in a bunch, I'm trying to let go. Be easy on yourself and I will go easy on myself. Have a great weekend!

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  4. I don't blog every day. Writing takes time for me. I have to tweak the "good" pieces to get them just the way I want. The fluff pieces are easier, but it still takes time. When I did the A-Z it just wasn't fun for me. I'm a 2-3 time a week poster and that's just fine for me.

    Perhaps, it should be for you as well. Committing is just knowing that you'll come back. 3 times a week is still committing.

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    1. Maybe you are right. I need to focus on the positive, not the negative.

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  5. my friend I was feeling like that the past few months, between blogging, my kidney stones and my step daughter's wedding (which was June 16) I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown.

    I used to blog every day. Stopped that a LONG time ago. Now I commit to 3 posts per week, (Mon, Wed and Fri) which in my opinion are the most popular reader days. I reserve the other days for if something "important" comes along. With two blogs I just cannot post every day.

    To be honest, I am a believer in "less is more" I often do not read the blogs that post every day because of the same reason I don't blog every day....NO TIME.........

    I am a believer in "absence makes the heart grow fonder"....not a prolonged absence, but "leave 'em wanting MORE"

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